It is that time again for some Monday motivation!!
Today my guest is my beautiful friend, Carolee. I met Carolee 6 years ago this week (wow, has it already been that long?)! We were both in an interesting part of our lives, and really ready for healing and freedom from many life issues that were holding us back.
As we got to know each other we would sometimes workout together. Those workouts were mostly walking, and sometimes lifting weights. As we both moved on with life and ended up in different states we stayed in touch. I remember the day we chatted and she said she ran a few miles. She was amazed at herself and I was SO proud of her! Fast forward a few years and she is now training for a MARATHON!!! I am so thrilled for her! This past weekend she did a 22 miler and I could not be more proud of her! She has overcome SO much and it has been an honor and a privilege to see her grow, face her fears and become even more courageous! She is also a very gifted writer, so here is what she has to say:
It is 6:45 on a Saturday morning. While the rest of my family sleeps, I am trying on various rain coats, filling up water bottles, and triple checking to make sure I have everything I need for my long run. The conditions are less than ideal, but I have done this routine enough times now I could more than likely do it with my eyes closed. And at times they probably are, because to say that I got a full four hours of sleep last night would definitely be reaching. I feel queasy and out of sorts due to the lack of sleep, as well as slightly bloated from carb-loading last night, but the extensive mileage requires extra fuel. Outside, the sky is threatening to unleash its storehouses, which have long been withheld this winter. I am definitely NOT looking forward to the potential of being thoroughly soaked once I step outside, but you know what? Despite all of my entirely valid excuses not to venture out today, I cannot wait to conquer each and every one of those 22 miles. All winter long I have been training for moments just like these. Will it be uncomfortable? Yes! Will it be challenging? I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t, but I know I have what it takes to overcome the difficulties I am sure to face on the course. I have encountered similar struggles on past runs and have prevailed, so while the obstacles might look different, ultimately this will be just another day at the park! My main objective is to take it one step, one mile, one run at a time. I can do this!
Now before you think I’m this beast who eats nails for breakfast and can climb Mount Everest in a single bound, let me tell you I wasn’t always this way. It is quite humorous to me that I now find myself running to face my giants, much like David as he conquered Goliath, because it wasn’t all that long ago I more or less resembled Saul, the king of Israel, who cowered in his tent when the giant reared his ugly head. Once upon a time I was afraid of everything. Bridges, mountains, spiders, eating, not eating, getting sick, people, people I love getting sick, living, dying. You name it I was more than likely terrified of it and I would do almost anything to avoid situations where I had to face those fears. I lived a structured, controlled, and isolated, or in other words, BORING and empty life. My hope was to avoid the pain and heartache often associated with being human, but despite my best efforts, difficult situations still arose; people around me died, I got sick, we moved, friendships ended, etc., etc. Through it all though, I learned a valuable lesson. I could sit in my tent, hiding under my blankets, waiting to die, which will eventually happen to us all any way, or I could go down to the river, grab a handful of rocks, and boldly run out to slay that giant! I often said to myself (in various situations), “This is either gonna go really well or it’s not, but regardless I refuse to be harassed by this monster (Fear) a moment longer!” It required faith, courage, and yes, the risk that it might not work out, but what if it did? What if I did get set free of an eating disorder, depression, and anxiety (which did in fact happen)? What if I did get that job? What if I did get into that school? What if I can run a marathon, climb Half Dome/Preikestolen, cook for well known public figures, jump out of airplanes, write a book, be a mom? When you conquer Fear the possibilities become endless. Kris Vallotton, a pastor at Bethel Church in Redding, Ca, often talks about how the dogs of doom sit at the doorway of your destiny. Fear might look menacing, but it’s just a scare tactic meant to keep you from moving forward, because if you look closely enough you will see that the dogs have no teeth 🙂 You have been given a sword (the word of God), so “Swing away Meril! Swing away!” (to quote the movie “Signs”) Just imagine all the good things God has waiting for you on the other side. Trust me it will be beyond your wildest dreams 🙂
Romans 8:28, Jeremiah 29:11
I am so proud of you Carolee, and I will be cheering for you SO loud on marathon day!!! ❤